well so sunday was the worst day of my life. Jeramy and I are not friends anymore and I wish we were never friends.. he pretty much tore my apart and said the meanest things anyone could ever say. However I am glad that I have other friends that are there for me. Ever since Sunday, I have been sad, down and jusst not myself. Its hard to focus and it makes me so tired. I do love however, love the fat that people want to beat th crap out of him… better them than me. lol but anyways I am on Spring Break and everything is going better. I am meeting some awesome friends and I have never been happier and more thankful. Tonite, I am watching Fireproof with my family and pastors and two friends. Can’t wait. I have been having some other kinds of feelings for some person and I cant expain it. He makes me so happy and smile and I lov being around him but yet there is another guy that likes me and I dont know whether or not to just hold back on dating or to go with my heart and tell that special guy how i feel. Hope everyone is fantastially great. Enjoy the rest of your week.
A GREAT Adventure March 4, 2009
hey so last night after I ate dinner with Luis (Luigi), I went home to call Sadie to see what was new and she was telling me how she was doing dishes then going to go pick someone up at one. Now at first it hought she met like one in the afternoon… yea she didn’t she meant one AM. she was going to pick Isaac up who was having some trouble with his ticket and he got stuck in Chicago. I told her I would go with her in a heartbeat if she would have asked me. I told her I was worried about her going alone so early and driving back and I didn’t want her to get distracted. So she said she would think about me comign along but for me not to count on it.. later, after I got off the phone with my other friend Jamie, Sadie called me asking me to come along and I accepted right away so we made plans on where to meet and let me tell you…IT WAS THE BEST ROAD TRIP EVER THIS YEAR. We took pics while on the road and listened to music.. got tired a couple times then we got pumped up and we beat Isaac to Chicago. Also I got sad because we passed Sex Flags.. lol man do I miss that place. Anyways, we got to Chicago before Isaac and we both had to go to the bathroom super uber badly, so we found a walgreens close by, and they had NO bathroom.. lol but we did find a starbucks but that didnt even open till like 5:30 and it was like 5:10. so we bummed around taking pics and being what we always are…GOOFY LOL. The we got the text from Isaac saying he was here so we went to pick him up and it was so awesome to see him again. I loved it. After we took group pics and had fun before we headed out after our adventure. I kind of fell asleep on the way home but everytime I heard loud parts to my music on my iPod i opened my eyes to Isaac staring at me.. lol and so after we got back to Appleton we dropped Isaac off and went in for a bit so Sadie could change for work then we drove to gtaco Johns and I got my car and she went to work and I drove home, packed to go to Rapids to see a speaker at my church which was so impacting and amazing to hear his testimony and really touched my life and I was proud of Ashley to get prayed for and knowing God will heal her. Then after I packed I went to take a little nap for like a half hour to an hour then I woke up took a shower and left for my Psychology class and almost fell asleep in the class I love. After class, there weas more driving for me as I drove home to Wisconsin Rapids. went to pick my mom up and then went to church. Let me tll ya… even though the day was longer and tiring than I was expecting… doesn’t mean I regret the day. I couldn’t have asked for a better day.. THANK YOU… the only thing is… is that I am just so darn tired. lol
long day March 3, 2009
k so today has been a super long day. I mean class 6-9 at night is starting to bug me. I got to sleep in at least watch tv and relax from my long week I had last week. However, it was quite great, seeing my friends and family and all. The only thing I don’t like is traveling back and fourth every week, but hey it’s worth it. I met with my counselor today and talked about how my stress has been because I have so much on my mind it’s hard to comprehend. I miss some of my friends that I hung out with every day at the mall, it’s like our relationships, well besides Ashley’s and I, but it’s like we have all parted and became distant. How am I dealing with this? well I guess I have learned not to try as hard as I did becasue i found out I only end up getting hurt or hurting the ones I love. Sometimes when you care about someone so greatly, you have to care about others before you care about yourself, and I have. I have learned to back away and focus on my goals, and not try too hard. I know I know what am I thinking right…but hey, thats life!
